All my life so far I have been only a faint seed of light, which could not even enlighten itself. So is my first printed volume, "Germs". It's great to have talent, but it's great to put that talent at the service of your dreams and make them come true. Or I was just an undisputed talent that only promised.
The years passed, I accumulated time and
information, only I did not germinate. The ground I was in was not right for me
and I could not let go of the sky. But I understood that much later.
Because I traveled a lot outside, I kept
postponing the trip from inside. There had to come a time when I could no
longer travel, to be forced to travel to my center.
I gathered a lot of information, but I was lost
among the trees and could not see the essence - the majestic forest where I
was. I didn't have that clarity. I could not see myself by detachment, from the
outside, I could not understand myself. I was always in a hurry to gather even
more information, so that at some point it would touch something. But all the
necessary information was already in me, but it lacked the right clarity and
focus.
I had enough money to satisfy my cravings, but
that simple happiness, which requires nothing, was lacking, because the place
was occupied with things that, no matter how many, did not fill that void,
having exactly the foundation of all things.
I had forgotten that I am the soul behind this
body and this physical mind that serves this body. I was the prisoner of the
machine, of the body, of the mind that accompanies it, I identified completely
with them. I, you, am not the car (the body), nor the steering wheel (the
physical mind), but something deeper behind these temporary things - the
driver, who needs to be awake for the direction to be taken. I'm not a body
that has a mind and a soul, I'm the soul behind everything that happens, and my
body is just a temporary avatar, it's a machine that helps me express myself in
the physical mind. And this mind is just the steering wheel, the tool that is
put at the service of the soul, it is a wonderful tool. But when you lose
yourself, when you fall asleep and you don't know what you are and who you are,
the car will go by itself.
Perhaps you cannot understand all of this, you who
have been indoctrinated all your life that you will not be reborn, that you
will be punished in hell, and that God is a ruthless bearded man who punishes
us, and not our heavenly Father full of enormous love, who accompanies us on
this journey. No, you who are subject to religion and all systems of thought
that aim to suppress your innate individuality and creative power, you who are
subject to the system that wants you weak, undecided, ignorant and easy to
manipulate, you have no way to reconnect to the Source and you express your
gifts with which you came here... You will not follow the impulse to listen to
the desires of your soul and the dreams with which you came here to fulfill
them... You will not even try to convince yourself that reincarnation is a
reality, that you can resort to regressive hypnosis and traverse this veil of
oblivion beyond this existence, so that you may understand the shadows and
overcome them. Yes, sadly, this was my life at some point!
But at some point, my soul couldn't stand it
anymore! Seeing how much I am lost and that I have no chance to shake off all
these limitations that are in fact just illusions, although I had access to so
much information and I educated my mind to penetrate more and more mysteries...
But that was the problem! The mind took the lead and was getting stronger! But
it always and always created only limiting conditions or illusions, not being
put in the service of that seed that always accompanies us - our dear soul, all
that we have best, all that remains for us when all melts! At night, when my
mind was asleep, my soul prayed earnestly to God to send me a mirror. I
couldn't see myself, because I was just using my mind. But my mind could see a
mirror, another outer self so similar to me, that I would have understood
myself as in a flash.
But I did not have the chance to germinate and
then be able to flourish if I remained in the environment in which I stagnated
and in which I was already identified with roles that did not honor me. In that
environment I was set from the beginning as a victim, I got used from the
beginning to give up my personal power to always please others who were focused
only on maintaining their own ego and benefits and were also lost in the
hologram of the mind.
My soul understood that it was not enough for only
the mirror to appear, in order to be able to understand and correct me, it was
evolving. But he needed to ask for divine guidance and melt my resistance to
change. Night after night, when my mind was asleep, my soul demanded the mirror
and the guidance, and surrendered to a huge intelligence that holds us all. The
one who takes care to grow the grass and feed the unprotected animals.
And one day Somebody appeared in my life. Somebody who was there before, only before my soul did not ask to be seen in the mirror.
From that moment, I received an impulse of understanding, it was like a flash,
The understanding was there in me, only I did not allow it to express itself!
In that Somebody, sent by ourselves the Giant Intelligence that takes care of
us all, I saw all my gifts, but also all the shadows... In the mirror! It was
me, my essence and even part of my life experience. Now I understood everything
so well, as if I had only just woken from a deep sleep. That Somebody had in
his pocket the Change, the one already understood by my soul and requested. But
only now was I ready to live it, when I melted my resistance. When I decided to
leave behind everything that filled my life then and prevented me from being
me.
Change certainly produces a vibration in the soul
of each of us. We recognize our inner drive and our purpose with which we came.
It's just that not many of us have the courage to let ourselves be guided and
give up everything we've identified so far to be wrong about ourselves.
You will all receive the change and the mirror,
when you ask for it and you choose to follow it. Until then, the physical mind
that has taken control, the machine that goes without obeying you, will fight
it and keep you in your comfort, in the limitations with which you have already
become accustomed.
Thank you, beautiful person who woke Me up in Me!
Which you gave me The Change, because you felt that it would take root in me.
We will pass on the change, if there are still brave souls, ready to receive it
and follow it.
Thank you, Universe who make sure that everything settles in time, as an echo to our desires and actions!